Most countries in the world are on Covid-19 lockdown in order to slow down the spread of the disease. This period is crucial as researchers and scientists race to find cures and vaccines to combat this dreaded viral infection. In the Philippines, we call it the Enhanced Community Quarantine (ECQ) and it’s going to be extended for a month.

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Much Thinking During the Covid-19 Lockdown

For many people, the Covid-19 lockdown is plain torture. All their liberties have been curtailed, thus, they are up in arms insisting that the government’s imposition is stepping on their human rights.

In my case, I would rather obey and stay at home. As the germophobe that I am, it is much safer for all of us to stay indoors.

I am not bored and not even depressed.

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There are just so many things to do that occupies my time. There are the kids, household chores, and my writing. By the end of the day, I am actually bushed!

Additionally, I am thankful that I decided to go back to taking my anti-depressants just before the lockdown was declared. I stopped last February 29. Read the story here: Leap Year: A Leap of Faith in Stopping Anti-depressants

The Mind is a Playground

Indeed, the mind is a playground. One night, I just couldn’t sleep. I was so tired but found myself tossing and turning.

Suddenly, the image of my kids flashed in mind. Then I started thinking about how the Covid-19 virus has changed many lives. Many people have been infected and a huge number have died without even seeing their families again. Their loved ones were not allowed to grieve by their loved ones.

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When I thought of not being able to hug my kids, I just lost it. There’s just that unspeakable sadness that I couldn’t contain so I couldn’t stop crying. My husband tried very hard to comfort me to no avail.

Listening to the Word of God

Eventually, after a lot of tears, I decided to open my Bible app. I listened to the audio version and kept repeating Psalm 91. It was chapter with verses that comforted my soul. It was like a minty, healing balm that soothe me and eventually I relaxed. Then I fell asleep.

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Wow, that was an episode. That anxiety attack cut deep in my heart that I couldn’t control myself. I couldn’t imagine this time if I stopped medication. It could have gotten worse!

Taking Antidepressants has helped me keep my emotions in check during the Covid-19 lockdown. Plus, I get much-needed sleep at night. If I don’t, it seems that I lose my marbles the next day. I think it was also God’s way of helping me deal with this situation.

And oh, I stopped reading the news. They’re really bad for my mental health.

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